ABOUT YOU, ABOUT ME, ABOUT THE PATH WE CHOOSE

I have lived on this world for quite some time. I have seen a lot  more than I could understand back then. In my youth, I couldn’t empathize with others’ emotions, I couldn’t touch what they were going through. Today, I know that life is not simple, not obvious, and cannot be confined to any definition.

In my life, I have experienced almost every emotion in the catalog. When they hit me, I thought it was the end of the world. That nothing would ever be the same. But today, looking from a distance, I realize it was beautiful – even if at the time it felt unbearable. Pain. Joy. Loneliness. Abundance. Poverty. Love. Disappointment. Longing. Memories. Singing. A broken heart. Complete devotion. These are just some of the emotions that have flowed through my mind and heart. Each of them left a mark. Each one shaped who I am today.

I did not walk the path that everyone else chose. I never felt that it was the right path for me. I asked: why? I searched for answers. I rebelled. Because the life I was given was not easy. Maybe it was meant to be? Maybe that’s how God wanted it? Maybe fate challenged me to see how much I am worth?

Today, as you read this, I know one thing: you and I are alike. Each of us has a choice. Every day, every moment. And it is up to us which path we take. I went against the current – I don’t know if it was the right one, but I know it’s my path. I feel alive when I fight, when I overcome obstacles, when I don’t conform to the norms. I never found the answer to the question of why I am the way I am – so I stopped searching for it. For many years, I enjoyed writing. For myself, not for anyone else. Not to share it with the world, but to release my emotions on paper. Positive and negative emotions. The ones that were simple and those that were very difficult. Because at that moment, I couldn’t fully understand them, so I wrote. I analyzed them while writing. Throughout it all, I kept asking myself, why is this happening to me? Why me? And I never got an answer to my questions. Why is this happening to me?

After many years, when a carton sealed with tons of tape found its way into my hands, I opened it and found countless sheets of paper. After reading my thoughts, I realized that I want to share them.

And this is precisely a part of those thoughts, based on experiences – the good and the bad – that became a part of the texts you can now listen to. Some are personal, some are universal, because, as you know, life is like that there are always two sides to the coin. I don’t want to reveal all of my thoughts, because I want to leave room for you.

I hope that in my thoughts and experiences, which you will hear, you will find a part of yourself. Because life is beautiful precisely because it is unpredictable.

My work is a part of me. Private, personal, true. I don’t know if it will resonate with you. Maybe your experiences are different. Maybe you don’t want to revisit the pain and disappointment. Maybe you prefer to forget about them. Maybe you are afraid of the darkness, just as I once feared it. But I know one thing: only when you face it, when you meet it head-on and show it your face, will you have full control.

And I promise you that.

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